My best friend Jessica is leaving for Japan on Thursday.
She's only going to be gone for a 3 week vacation.
But I'll still miss her nonetheless.
Insight, from the shower <33
** picture provided by: Icecubed17 on deviantART [ click ].
Monday, June 8, 2009
Crying at School.
Isn't crying at school suppose to end around the 8th grade?
In the 8th grade there was a US history class that I was in. I did well in the course itself, but what made me hate that class so much were the people. A few kids from the popular crowd were in my class and they use to tease me. Snicker behind my back; call me stupid names. Even when I knew they weren't talking about me, they were whispering among themselves, and I was paranoid. I would come out of that class a few times with a tear or two; small enough that I could quickly wipe them away before meeting my friend Virginia who was in the math class next door. But there was this one day-- and I don't even remember what happened-- when I came out of that class bursting with tears.
Four years later. I'm a senior in high school. 2nd period Psychology. It was one of my favorite classes. I enjoyed the subject, the teacher was awesome, and I had a few friends in the class too. But there were three people in that class that made me so angry at times, I felt like shoving their head in a blender. I never met them, never knew they existed, until I took that class. I don't regret being in it, but at the same time I wished they would drop out. Plus it didn't really help that more than half the class of 2008 liked them. But this blog post is about crying in school, not so much about their social ranking.
There were only 2 legit times I cried while in high school.
[ o n e ] Sophomore year. The "Every 15 Minutes" exercise. The principal-- on the loudspeaker-- would announce a few names of students, teachers, and staff and declare that they have either died or are critically injured due to an accident, in order to stimulate the pain and impact drinking while under the influence can have on a person. One of the names they called was a girl named Claudia who was in my math class the year before. We were just acquaintances, but it really hit me because she was a senior that year. She was suppose to graduate in a month and go off to do amazing things in life. Of course it was only a stimulation, and Claudia didn't really die (I hope she's doing well these days). But after hearing her name on that loudspeaker... I broke down.
[ t w o ] Junior year. The unfortunate loss of a great person. I've known Mike since freshman year and I'd like to say we were close acquaintances. We didn't hang out outside of school, and we weren't exactly in the same pool of friends, but if we saw each other in the halls we'd say hi. Or ask about each other's weekend during class. He left for Heaven on a Saturday night, and I remember the Friday before I had wished him a good weekend. I came to school the Monday right after the accident and went to my first period class. Algebra 2. I noticed the empty desk behind mine. It was Mike's. I broke down.
I don't really like crying in public, because if you knew me in real life you'd know that I'm naturally a happy and spunky type of person. Two of friends, Megan and Joe, had claimed on two different occasions that if I'm sad, everyone's sad. Which looking back on it, makes me realize the reason why I don't like crying (or being sad in general) in public: because if I make other people happy with my happiness, then it's not worth to see them worry about me or wonder what's wrong.
But there was one occasion during one day in that 2nd period Psychology class when I wanted to not just cry, but to scream! It was almost like an everyday routine for them to say rude and obnoxious comments about things I'd say or do. They would indirectly belittle me by questioning the way I thought, or the things I liked. Teens will be teens, I get it. But there is a line of tolerance, and it's different for everyone. For me, the tolerance level is high. If you want to be mean, or talk smack about me: go ahead! It's not like I'm going to do anything about it, but to shrug it off. There is a breaking point as well, and it can be one little or one big thing that sets it off. For me however, it was an accumulation of all their little things, plus one too many.
So the question is: did I cry? No. I held it in, and saved it for that night's shower. In the midst of the warm water, I cried. And while I thought about how much I disliked them, and how much I wanted to tell them off, I had a spark of insight that was lost in my head until now.
They had no idea how much of an influence they had over others. And when you don't know the kind of affect you have on other people, how the fuck are you going to change if the affect you have is not good? To some people, they were amazing friends. To to others, they were absolute douche bags! I don't hate them, and I don't wish them any harm. They're probably having a great college life, but if I were them, I would hate to be the cause of someone's tears.
"Know you're affect,
And don't be blind.
Don't be the cause,
Just be kind."
Insight, from the shower <33
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The Long-Awaited Kiss has been Filmed.
Last week on Thursday, June 4th, 2009, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint, who are known for their roles as Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley in the book-adapted films, have filmed the long-awaited, and fan-hyped kiss for the 7th installment of the Potter series. "Harry Potter and the Dealthy Hallows" will be released in two parts, the first being on November 19th, 2010 and the second on July 15th, 2011 (dates subject to change). The 6th Potter film entitled, "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince" is set to be released this summer on Wednesday, July 15th, 2009, two days earlier than its previous release date of July 17th, 2009.
Oh snap! I can't wait to see it in theaters! I am a total Hermione-Ron shipper and the 7th book was one of my favorites, so I am quite excited to see this in theaters!!
Insight, from the shower <33
Update on Flight 447.
16 bodies have been recovered and part of the plane's tail. The black box has yet to be found and unless it can be located, the reasoning behind the crash will remain unknown.
"What caused the Airbus A330 to crash May 31 with 228 people on board will remain a mystery unless searchers can locate the plane's black box flight data and voice recorders, likely buried deep in the middle of the ocean."
Insight, from the shower <33
SOURCES: Yahoo News
You see there's this guy... <3
"...and he doesn't even know what he does to me..."
So there's this guy that I've known since my Senior year of high school. His name is Josh and I had fallen hard-- head over heels for him. I'm not exactly sure when it hit me, but all I can remember is the feeling of utter happiness every time he was around me. Just thinking about him and writing about him, still makes me smile and giggle like a pre-teen. He has a lot of good qualities. He's kind, considerate, funny, and he's genuinely a good guy. He would never intentionally hurt a girl, and when it comes to their feelings, he's delicate. Josh can be the alpha-male, but he's sensitive too. He's laid back and goes with the flow. He has drive, especially when he's determined to reach a specific goal. He can be protective, not just of his girl, but of his friends, sisters, and sometimes... over someone like me.
Josh and I had two classes senior year and even though one of the subjects weren't so enjoyable-- he made me look forward to it. We were friends, and he even once called me a good friend. It seems so small now, but back then I felt like doing back flips. But with that title of being a "good friend," came with a price: to actually BE a good friend. I knew what being a good friend meant. To be there for him; to encourage and cheer him on; to make him smile when he's feeling down; and to listen to him... Listen.
Listen to him talk about her. Listen to him talk about how she was so great, and how he really wanted to be with her. Listen to him talk about how he'd be good to her. Listen to him rant about that other boy who wanted her too. Listen to him compare himself to that other boy. Listen to him in all his happiness after he finally had her. Listen to him in all his broken heartedness after loosing her. Listen to him talk about trying to get her back. Listen to his desolation, after he lost her to the other boy. Listen to him talk, and talk, and talk, his voice louder than the rhythm my heart was beating for him...
Even though it hurt, at least I listened.
Insight, from the shower <33
** photo provided by michexist on deviantART [ click ].
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Another Victory for the Lakers.
Game 2.
Sunday, June 7th, 2009.
Staples Center. Lakers vs. Magic.
The Los Angeles Lakers defeat Orlando Magic 101 to 96.
Game 3 is on Tuesday, June 9th, 2009 in Orlando.
Insight, from the shower <33
SOURCES: Yahoo Sports
Harry Potter Should Have Died.
From the innovative minds that brought you
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"J. K. Rowling not only told a wonderful story of a boy wizard; she also created an endless, magical world filled with millions of what-ifs. Whether the reader is a ten-year-old in the school lunchroom or an adult posting on one of the countless Potter fansites, debating what ifs is the love of millions of Harry Potter fans. Now Mugglenet.com's Unofficial, Unauthorized and Unequaled Harry Potter Debates brings the original and entertaining views of the experts behind Mugglenet.com to 100 of the most interesting and contentious debate topics in the Potter world. Digging into every reference in all seven books, the authors apply the same unmatched insight that allowed them to be so incredibly accurate with their predictions in Mugglenet.com's What Will Happen in Harry Potter 7. Readers find plenty to ponder as they consider whether Snape or Dumbledore is a better wizard, whether it would be better to own Harry's invisibility cloak or his flying broomstick, and many more magical conundrums."
I have yet to get my copy, but I hope to asap! Being that I am a totall Harry Potter nerd, this book (along with "Harry, A History" written by Melissa Anelli) is a total must to add to my repertoire of Potter paraphernalia. Stay Happy!!
Insight, from the shower <33
SOURCES: Barnes and Noble
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